Dear Every Breath All Entries Page 16

Brunette, 5’8, 22, light brown eyes that look like honey when the light catches them at sunset and transgender. I live in an age where people seem to be progressive but I feel so distant from everyone. Dating is hard which is extremely frustrating. Guys are great and accepting but it always seems to come down to being embrassased of being with a trans girl or their parents are ashamed or closed to the idea that a trans girl would have great morals and values and be a daughter of god. It’s a constant struggle and I feel so distant from characters in novels. I want everyone to feel included.

Like pawns on a chess board, my partner of 6 years and I were moved to initially meet at the Cape Fear River’s edge. It was Memorial Day 2012. I woke up in the morning and, without even brushing my hair or teeth, took off on my bike for a long ride to the Carolina Beach State Park. I paused at the river to look at the beautiful area I had just moved to on my own now at age 59. This day, I watched a man end his kayaking trip at the cove right in front of me. He had a college t-shirt on that I shared familiarity so I spoke to him. We talked about the college and kayaking. A remarkable journey...

Thank you for my most current read, Every Breath. How refreshing to read a love story in this day and age, when so much negativity is present in the world. I thoroughly enjoyed it. I have a background with similar circumstances profiled in Every Breath. After meeting my current spouse at Harvard many years ago and remaining in love for 63 years, makes me feel very fortunate. This is not unusual for my generation. How lucky that generation was! With appreciation for keeping your public aware through your books that committed love is truly a real blessing. Audrey

I truly believe that our dreams should come true and that everything that happens to us has a purpose.I have been reading Nicolas Spark’s books since I was 12. The “The Notebook” impressed me till so much and it reminded me the story of my family. A year ago, when Nicolas visited Russia, I found out about his visit too late and I was very upset that I could not meet him.I am working with a famous Russian singer, on January 30 he has a concert in Washington.On January 31 I has a day off, I am going to visit New Bern. Only or day and couple of hours. My dream is to meet him!Please, help me!

Manny the strongest person I know, All of my life I prayed for a happy life, a good life, without realizing all my prayers were answered the day I meet you. I never truly knew how much pain hides behind a smile, until the day I watched you tell me the story of your life. I was amazed by how well you hid all the pain and suffering and still stood tall ready to conquer anything life sent your way and because of that i fell in love. your pain became my own. you have always told me I saved your life but in all reality you saved mine. Because of you i believe in destiny and true love. martha

It is a struggle to face every day. Every day takes so much energy out of me, doing what I love. Do I even love it anymore, I ask? But I know nothing else. What I love is seeing you there. And I beat myself up at the thought of wanting to leave. Not because of you but because I need to love what I do. But I can’t do that if you are not there.

College- a time of change, independence and wonderment; however, for me, it was a time of confusion, self doubt and feeling like a failure. That’s when I met you. You made me feel whole, beautiful and loved. A feeling I never knew and something that scared me. I left you without explanation. Here we are, years later- enjoying life as newlyweds. You waited for me to find out who I was and finish college. You waited for me to learn to love myself. I knew I loved you, even as I was telling you goodbye and I don’t know what I’d do if you never came back.

You were my first love at 14. We may have only spent a year together before you broke my heart. I know you have to learn to love yourself before you can love another. We sustained our friendship until you graduated high school first. Oh, how I wished you would’ve talked to me instead of them. Our lives could have been so different now. You don’t know, and probably don’t care. I still look at your social media profiles to see how you are doing. I saw your breakups, and even when you had a new baby girl. I just wanted to say, thank you for giving me a part of you.

As a child I never felt I belonged. My father left before I was born and my mother was forever resentful. I grew up being comfortable alone and quite frankly preferred it. I never knew what direction I wanted to follow and tried too hard to please those who could never be pleased. All this has taught me one thing. That take your breathe away, heart wrenching love is real. I e seen no evidence of your existence yet I've never felt more sure that something exists. That love isn't something you can prepare for but I'll be waiting for you. Even if it takes lifetimes.

To say my life is a series of after school specials is an understatement. From being adopted, to being abused,to loving a baby after being raped and so much in between. There isn’t enough lines to describe my mere 44 years. This letter is a letter to my future self. The self that can look back on that life and not cry, but smile at the memories and lessons that were learned. To my future self, remember that you are not defined by the moments of pain or even joy. You are defined by how you picked yourself up and dusted yourself off. You are the trials and the tribulations and so much more.

I’ll never forget 6-2-17. It had to be the universe that brought us to the same place at the same time that night. When you looked at me and I looked at you and we found home in each other’s eyes. How easy it was to fall in love with you. Now 5000 miles away, I can still recall the sparkle of your blue eyes, the way your mouth curled when you smiled, the softness of your kiss. I will look for you first in my next life. I will kiss you as many times as there are stars in the sky, to make up for all the nights we slept under the same moon but in someone else’s arms. Love, J

Living by the sea was always a dream of mine. I moved from the Greensboro, NC area to CB area 4 years ago. Im so grateful.Theres something about it that soothes my soul. I love how the salt air makes me feel and the way theres a constant lil breeze...it feels like magic flowing all around you. The sound of the Ocean keeps me alive. I literally crave it.There really are no words. I hear KS is a majestic place and I'm so ready to venture there. I am NS lover and have a good collection of his books but this one done something to me...its THE ONE like AMAZING! I'm reading it again already ♡ heddy

The right person will be as happy with a ring-pop as with a diamond, if it meant they have you. Would rather have your hand in theirs than anything from Tiffany's. The right person would spend one day and night with you, than a hundred others with the wrong person. The right person would see you for ten minutes than have you spend a lifetime with someone else. The right person would sacrifice to stay with you, not ask for anything more. The right person will love you sunshine and rain. The right person would rather have your stick figure drawing than a Picasso or Monet.

I am in love. I have been for 37 years. He is my soulmate and my best friend. How did I become so lucky to have someone care for me and love me unconditionally. Life can be simple at times, I am the lucky one, I am in love.

I once read somewhere the following, "Maybe we already lived our love", author unknown. I came across those words at a time in my life where I felt lost and those six words I feel put everything in perspective for me. Time will never erase the depth of my love for you. Towards the end of our relationship, you loved me in a way that I had never been loved before. I think of you everyday and I reminisce often of what we once had. We were so perfect for each other but in other ways we were not. Our love for each other was like a drug. We did it all wrong. I miss us. I love you always.

When you sing iam always in awe. when you laugh it puts a smile on my face.when you cry it breaks my heart.I fell in love with you from the moment i first saw you and i wish i would have met you much sooner while I was in college then maybe i could have beeb braver to tell you but i guess it was fate to love you from a distant.But my heart yearns for the day i can tell you face to face how much i adore you.with love Aisha 

Three cups clutter my dresser, An old bowl of soup sits on my desk Laundry spilling from the basket, bed unmade Desk unseen beneath piles of things I don't need Bills racking up from compulsive purchases, the fleeting hope that the gifts to myself will shatter the darkness Bowl of soup on my blanket, blanket on my lap Two days unshowered, sleeping half my time away Dark circles in my skin underneath my aching eyes, frown on my paling face Clothed in my softest sweatshirt, hair pulled back, sweat clings from delirium and dreams Someone pray tell what is the nightmare, dream or reality?

Love, before meeting you my life was the pages of a book marked by sad and white spaces. Suddenly they have become written in capital letters and full of joy. Pages full of life and love. Love, this book I want to continue to write it down, to write this endless love story. Our love, in difficulties and in joy, in good and in bad.

I've been trying to write my autobiography for a couple of years now but can't seem to finish it. I wish I had someone like you to teach me how to write a good book or maybe to help make my book great.

I feel so honored and so very lucky to have had the chance to experience true love with you.... you taught me that i am worth loving and you saw so many good things in me that i never saw in my self. You showed me such,patience,understanding kindness , compassion and tenderness. I will forever be grateful for the time that we spent together in love, my only regret is that it was to short. I will forever cherish this love and the memories will forever be with me. All of my love always.